Long over due update

It’s been ages since I posted here. So I thought I would make a big ol’ update on the state of my universe.

Ya see I have been going through a lot of soul searching and pondering over the past few months. And have decided to make film my career. As both of you know, after a period of inactivity I decided (as I often do) to make something on a whim. I wrote a movie called “Drop Off” and went about attempting to throw it together over two weekends. We shot a full days worth and I once again played my role of director,cinematographer, pretty much everything (except for sound thanks to my good friend Mike Diaz). And as I edited the footage together I began to realize that it wasn’t very good. Now don’t get me wrong, I have come a very VERY long way from my early days of film making. The stuff I did cut together wasn’t awful. But it wasn’t perfect. And for the first time in forever I found myself very unsatisfied with the end product and completely aware why. I’m just done doing everything myself. As amateur film makers, we are all aware of doing everything ourselves. Some aspect of it is fun and incredibly useful. You learn a lot when you have no one to turn to to make your ideas reality. But film is inherently a collaborative art form, and so it’s silly to try and keep going, asking as little of the folks around you as possible. I have always found it extremely difficult to ask for help. I don’t want to imposition anybody. Now if you asked everyone involved in the Drop Off shoot, I’m sure they would say they had a lovely time. It’s all in my head for sure. The world is full of passionate and giving people who would gladly sacrifice their time for a friend or collaborator. And it’s the amateur mindset I’ve held onto that has come to hold me back.